so... i've always been in self-denial.

have always thought of myself as a leader. wants to lead. think i CAN lead.

but, what if all along im wrong abt myself?

wanzhen, stop living in denial. see how your friends got viewed as "leaders"..
rec to assume position you've silently wished for it but nv did...

admit it wanzhen. its not the others. its not the lack of opportunity. its not the environment. its YOU. you are not suitable to be a leader.

same hating of a person, i expressed it to such extreme-ness that even i regret afterwards. same hating of a person, the other person can expressed in non-chalant yet get away with it as someone who is just funny.

u suck man wanzhen

you are nv recognised as one individual, but as xxx's friend. you have nothing positive for ppl to remember you for.

so the happy and contented wanzhen has finally passed. after 1 and a 1/2 months of confidence build-up, now its back to norm.