as we move on to the end of 2004... welcoming the start of 2005, how many people actually reflect on what they have done this past year? haha.... i don't.. normally. this year passed real fast. i normally spent my time in school, busied myself with alot of non-academic related stuffs. I'm past my unhappy times (or maybe, i lived with it). I started to realise there's actually alot of fun-loving and cool peps beside mi... ppl like bb gang... nv tot they could be as rock... as united. Ppl like my classmates... always as cute... we got crazy ever since we started our complicated network of relationships. Ppl like waifun.. i realised she was there long ago... but i was glad the china trip made us more aware of each other... haha.. and ever since we are very close qing ai deS. I've learn alot and seen alot too.. Ppl like sj.. we have our fun times together.. actually we are not as untolerant of each other as wat ppl think. haiz.. sometimes.... its juz that we dun click. that's all. Ppl like lf.. finally had a heart to heart talk with him. i think he's finally thinking. I mean... he start to see things he nv did when he was in the relationship. Ppl like momo.. some crap i will say... haha... the feeling is so contradicting... like sometimes u are so close to him... sometimes u juz feel that u hardly noe him at all. Call mi a loner. haha... nv quite experienced wat i had this year.... often feel so out of place that i wish i could juz accept some weirdo scholarships and get of the school, of this place. start anew. sometimes juz dun feel like being out of place again, so i reject the outings... saying im sick, im not free, im running errands for my mother... haha.. yeah right. all bullshits. haha.. i apologise. u noe that feeling that u rather be alone... when u will not have the feeling that u are being ostracised. but sometimes things juz dun happen the way u tot they will be... suddenly everybody start to dislike the same person u dislike... and u are part of the gang again. haha.. it feels so good, yet so bad. hope u noe wat i mean. 把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上.. i hope that this acceptance is for real. permanant. and i started to realise that right from the start, i think abit too much... haha... imaginationS. all these after i found a friend finally. overwelmed. BUT, i cherish them. although it seems its falling apart again. Luckily im not alone. haha.. i think mi and mk are stuck together again. (could it be... right from the start... these feelings started because I lose this friend of mine?) haha... I always tot i am a selfish person.. until somebody told mi i wasnt one. but that's not the point. i feel that im being such a failure in my life. haha.. this is the conclusion i got after these few days of thinking. maybe because i have high expectations of myself. yy, u saw my disc report. haha... every point above the midline shows that inner part of mi, i hope to excel in all areas. yeah, true. ppl always tell mi im so cool... my results so good... my erhu so good... i juz wanted to shout back to them "eh.. u noe how disgusting all these are anot?" i nv tot my results are good. these As and Bs and Cs are so damn tyco and disgusting that i want to puke. i juz feel that i dun deserve them at all. my erhu skills is even worse. i cant even play those simple do-re-mis in faster tempo. (and not to forget i was supposed to be so sad i din have a fren in jc.) F a i l u r e. heh heh.. i really think i am the zi bei (自卑)type. wah... cant believe hor.... those who believe pls raise up ur hand. or maybe i laugh too much.. or maybe i get over things too fast.... maybe i have this split personality that makes ppl noe mi so little... yet so much. hey, im proud to say, i did not live this year in vain. :) I really thank bb gang for bringing joy to my life, and to my new found fren wf for being so caring. to mel, who always share similar sentiments with mi these 8 years, making mi less alone. to yy, thanks for swimming with mi (haha.. i can always count on u to explore those outdoor activities..). these people really make my life in 2004 less of a pain, more of a joy. (not to mention, the many others who brighten up my life every now and then.. e class spirit of 4e2... u guys rocks.. and eunice yeo... i din forget u... :P) Happy 2005.

yo guys. yeap im back. err.. i was back on 2 dec evening. but totally haven recover. still very tired... so till now den update. but i still haven recover from my flu. argh.... the teachers said if we dun get sick 1 week after the trip, they will give us a treat. looks like its gone.... :(

the trip was fun. the tour guide was fun! (and not to mention - cute! v(^o^) but more abt him later...) learnt alot of things. many history stuff i read on books came to real life.. erm.. but china hasnt change THAT much since the last time i went beijing (when i was in p5). prob all the stuff abt china's changing very fast only happens in xin shanghai, which is indeed very modern. but i still find that jiu shanghai is more beautiful at night. basically, xin shanghai and jiu shanghai is divided by huang pu jiang. along the coast of jiu shang hai are buildings since early 1900s, when the unequal treaties was signed after the opium war, and the european countries started to come into shanghai and do business there. on the other side of huang pu jiang, the xin shanghai has all the high rise building blar blar.. im not very impressed prob because u see that in singapore anyway. but it is also very cool to see a china from past, and the china in the future laid before ur eyes, and only separated by a river. the tour guide said that every day china have to spend 80,000 rmb to light up all lights!!! which is a whopping S$16,000!! PER NIGHT!!!! siao one rightz?


jiu shanghai

jiu shanghai

xin shanghai

dong fang ming zhu dian shi ta

chio rightz? another most funny thing happening in china is ong gim teng and his huge huge appetite. haha... some evidence to show...





haha.. the last one was because he hide one of the 1.5l coke under his shirt.... diaoz..

it was during autumn when we went.. going into winter. so it was pretty cold. the lowest temp we met was -2 degrees... haha.. cool right.. some of the sceneries was also quite cool.... other pics we took:














my tour guide was damn cool. and cute. he was a very good tour guide. very fun-loving. treat us very nice. all the girls in the group loved him... whahahaha..... u may not find him very shuai... but he's that kind very knowledgable.. very nice... very funny and humorous kind. hehe..

oh yeah... that's the end of my entry.. hope u guys can see the pics.. if cannot.. den i try to think of some other ways bah...