aaarrggh~~~ wat the fuck!

everytime something needs to be done, u will tell mi "I think shijia is tired.."

so??? I'VE ALREADY NOT SLEEP FOR ONE NIGHT!!! ONE FULL NIGHT!!!!!!

nvm... i think its my responsibility to do the job. i am the group leader. since shijia is so damn tired after doing one of the 5 sections of the presentation, that's she's going to faint or sth. and i think u need to look after her by talking to her over the phone and console her that everything is alright. i think i should do the work.

yeah right. FUCK YOU.

Met a pri friend. discovered by chance that she is actually a cousin of my LTC mate. haha.. small world yah? and whenever i see her, she always reminded mi of my birthday when i was in primary.. 5... i think... back then, i was one who minded my birthday.. alot. i think prob i see birthdays as a day when u can get all the things u want, but not needing to spend a single cent. that day, she gave mi a birthday present i will never forget. it was a seashell.. den there was this small cartoon there, and a shiny sticker saying 'happy birthday' sticking to the seashell. i hated that present.. and threw my temper at her.. i think. I remember she looked quite sad.. cos i wasnt appreciating watever she was giving mi. if i din remember wrongly, i think she apologised. dunno why.. my mindset had changed over the years. this day.. i will juz feel very happy when i wake up on that day and finds that there are sms-es already in my inbox, wishing mi a happy birthday. even if there are no presents. i guess its the feeling of being remembered that counts. when ur sec sch frens, pri sch frens, camp mates msg u.. even though we might not have been contacting each other for a very long time, it really makes mi feel different. they have juz reminded you that u still have a fren out there.. in one corner that u might have forgotten. it makes mi guilty sometimes, when i forgot their birthdays... till they reminded mi becos of this msg they sent during 14 sept. haha... now thinking back.. i feel that i was very immature. but actually its a good thing. that means i have sortof changed over the years. i mean.. not forever remaining as ME.. the ME 6 years ago and now is different, and hopfully, better. so, whenever i see this friend, she always reminded mi how diao i was.. and up till this day, 6 years and 1 month later, i still do not have the courage to tell her im sorry. haiz.

whoa.. juz rush finish xia ri xiang qi.. all the way till 4am in the morning. the ending was.. okay.. not going to spoil the fun.. so to those who are chasing after this serial, sorry ah. ok they are together in the end. haha.. but as u can see (or feel) i dun feel very happy abt the ending. i mean.. i do feel happy they are together again. but i dunno why i feel so... empty. haha.. not the normal happy happy feeling when i see couples ending up together. dun get mi wrong, i still think its a very nice show. mayb i juz dun like the feeling the director juz end the story with the two staring at each other.. at the same stairs they've met 3 years ago, each holding an umbrella.. yesh.. like 3 years ago. maybe im the kind that likes things to have a definite answer. after one big round.... meaningless. mayb not so. their relationship have too much obstacles. shen cai, zhenya, parents.... and the uncertain feelings that cannot really be confirmed. might as well. same heartbeat. but this time round, they can be sure its really from their hearts. hmm.. one particular line sort of gimme alot of gan chu. its when huiyuan met with zhenya. zhenya start telling her how she hate her because she stole her beloved xue zhang. den huiyuan answered her saying at least she can tell her that she hate her. but she cannot hate enhui. cos she's living in her. after zhenya left. this is what huiyuan said to herself (or enhui's heart): "我不是恨你,也不是忌妒你,我只是羡慕你,可以拥有他整颗心…" she's talking about her feelings here.. or is it zhenya's feelings?

whoa.. juz woke up at 2.30....pm. haha.. yesh man. break record. nv once slp till so late without waking up in between. so its a whooping 12 HOURS OF SLEEP!!!! hahha... yesh.. its after promos le. and during promos everyday have to rush my revision till 3am.. so guess how much sleep i have missed. but i juz realised one thing - im not that immuned to tea afterall!! haha... it really makes mi.. err... abit more awake.... erm.. maybe its that sugar. haha.. anyway, who cares. it has served it purpose. another tip for staying up late: NV lie on ur bed to study. dun give in to ur mind when it says:" ok, ur back is very de soar, lie down will be much more comfortable.." and u will find urself waking up 6am the next morning.. ok... since its after promos le.. guys.. u can start booking appointments to go out with mi le. registration starts now. first come first serve basis. ;) ok.. im not really totally free lah.. still got project work... oral presentation... oh well.. it 10% to uni admission. sucks totally. sucks more if i have to work with some diao diao ppl. but at least exams are over. haiz.. dun make mi retain... or better, let mi take back my 4A's... haiz..